This i just a run down of what i knew and don't know about myself.
What is in this blog is the truth and hopefully some will remain so as time goes by.

I know i can be funny, i know sometimes i don't know how to turn it off but i don't know why i'm sad most of the time.

I love honesty and i try to be 100% Honest with people even more so if i care about them. I don't know how long it will be before i lie again and i don't know why i'll still dumbly confess eventually.......... well at least 50% of the time.

I believe in love and know it has levels because i have climbed that ladder. I don't know why i have never met anyone who actually loves past the first 5 steps.

I know that I'm not your typical guy and i know that i hate how most guys treat women and some women treat men but i don't know.......really don't know why even after so much messed up situations and hurt and pain and time i have wasted, i still want to remain the same and hold on to my values but it really seems to just be a waist of time.

Wish my father was around to give me some advice, wish i had spent more time listening to his words.
Don't know why he had to when i still had a lot to ask.

I don't know why people tend to not see how special something is till its gone. I don't know if i can forgive and forget again or if i would want to take that risk again.

I don't even know why I'm still typing but maybe this will help someone out there.

I know who i am and who i want to be.

I don't know who I'll become.